I wish I were a boy

June 03, 2020

I wish I were a boy

It doesn't mean I hate being a girl

I am capable of driving alone to outskirts
to watch sunrise. I woke up at 4 AM but I did not go .

Am I afraid of the dark ?

My father treats me like a princess but
why does he get anxious if I go alone somewhere ???

Ohh , but why do u want to go alone in the first case???
Dont you know this world is not a safe place for girls ???

But if I still choose to go alone ,
does it mean I dont care whatever happens to me ??

My mom did not show difference between
me and my brother,
so now is it her fault if I dream to fly ??

There's a small hillock in the outskirts,
at night it turns out breezy and
You can see the city lit in lights, but wait
It's forbidden for girls because
guys come there to booze.

There's a calm and serene beach but being a girl
should I choose only the crowded and chaos ?

I have friends in guys who are adorable
but they avoid me saying "it is not safe for girls"
So should I feel previleged that they care for me ?

There are girls who do not even go to school or office ,
So should I feel comforted that I have done that ??

My friends say I am bold but still I wish I were a boy.

I do not regret for being a girl but I wish I were a boy.

A friend said ,
It is better being oppressed than to be the oppressor ,
but I know ,
deep in her heart she feels the same as I do.

And I did not think twice to depend on that oppressor
And asked for help to take me out but
they denied because they were busy.

Another friend said, she love being a girl.

Yes I too love being a girl , but I wish I were a boy
So I wouldn't have been dependant and faced the denial.

Time flew with all these thoughts in the mind

while I was lying down

The sky started to lit up.

And , I got up ,
Went to the terrace to watch sunrise and saw ,

There is a sky,
There is a bird, and
The bird has wings,
It knows how to fly,
It can pierce through the strongest wind. But
Alas! The bird, being a girl,
Was made weak,
It had to shut its wings

And just watch the sky.